Life around here has been pretty crazy of late. Between building a home, the farm, the kids, and staying up way too late sewing and crafting, I have been feeling a little flat. Exhausted actually.
Which got me thinking.
When we started our family it was decided that I was going to be a stay at home mum and raise our little possums. We didn't want to put our children into childcare and I was ready for a career change anyway. I thought this be a good time to do some soul searching and find out what I REALLY wanted to achieve in this life.
I didn't want to have kids and work. I wouldn't go and get a job. I don't want a job. I want to be at home.
HOWEVER, since starting my WAH biz, I have worked harder than ever before! Why?
If I was given the choice to go to go out and job and do the hours that I am currently doing, there is no way in hell that I would agree, I would kick and scream and throw a big old 2 year old temper tantrum on the floor!
How could you possibly expect me to do that on top of what I already do?
Do you realise how much time and energy goes into being a mum?
And where do you think I would find the time to do a job, in between washing, ironing, toilet training, cooking, reading stories, breast feeding etc etc?
So why then, am I working so hard? Why have I decided that I will work so hard from home, and so such stupid hours for little return, when I would never in a million years go out and get a job that would pay SO much more?
So, with this realisation, I am downscaling. I am only sewing in reasonable hours, I am not accepting custom orders, and I am getting back to my kids.
I have decided to judge my success on on MYSELF, not in comparison to those around me, and to enjoy the little things again.
I think, that if we all actually sat down and thought about it, I wouldn't be in this boat alone. There are many of us that stay up til the wee hours of the morning getting things finished, then get up before 7 and start all over again!
This week, I think we should make a movement! We should all take ONE day off, no computer, no phone, no crafting, no biz, just play!
If this is ringing some bells in your mind, then maybe you also need to scale back a little, look at the bigger picture. We only have these little souls for such a short time before they are all grown up and out in the world, and I for one, dont want to miss a single moment!
I Agree. I think if you are worn out you need a break. If I feel like Ive done too much I build a tower, bake a cake and wrestle with my 2 year old. I also take Mondays off from sewing, one thing I learned when I was very young was "you always need 1 day in 7 off". Good luck with your scaling back :)
ReplyDeleteI agree so much with all you wrote esp the bit....
ReplyDeleteWe only have these little souls for such a short time before they are all grown up and out in the world, and I for one, dont want to miss a single moment!
:)